Honestly, I’m tired of meeting new people. I don’t want to sound bad or anything, because I don’t want to stop meeting new people. I love meeting people, and I’m excited to know people. But it’s so many freaking people to know, and so many names to remembered. I’m almost discouraged by the fact that I can’t remember everyone’s names. And there’s so many people here, so you feel like you’re getting to know a bunch of people, but secretly, you don’t know that many.
Which I think kinda leads into something I wanted to blog about. I’m not sure about you crazy people, but I totally love to hate me. I’m so hard on myself about literally everything. I hold myself to standards of perfection that are not attainable. I beat myself up because I do something that literally happens to everyone. I try to be perfect. Honestly, I’m not perfect. I’m not even a little perfect.
So I was reading this verse yesterday, and it got me thinking. It’s in the Message, at Romans 14:13-14. It says “I’m convinced — Jesus convinced me! — That everything in itself is holy. We, of course, by the way we treat it or talk about it, contaminate it.” So a couple things hopped to my attention. But the main one is this.
Everything is holy. In and of itself, everything is holy. It’s God’s creation, and God doesn’t make unholy things. God makes things holy. When he creates them, they are holy. He created us. That means when he created us, we were perfect. We were corrupted by the world we live in, the hate, the crazy people. But we were born holy. I carry weight on my shoulders a lot o the time, just because I’m not who I want to live up to be. Because I’m not perfect. Which I understand is ridiculous, and I understand that I should know I can make mistakes. And I will make mistakes. And I’m working on it, so give me a break. But it’s always reassuring, when I read this, I know that I was created for a purpose. And God, has created me as holy, and has a holy plan for me. That’s just what I need to hear on some days, you know? Like on the day when I totally hate myself for my little imperfections, I can remember that I am made holy by the Holiest. I am loved by the creator. And that’s always encouraging. Especially when I’m hating on myself. I may not be perfect. But I was definitely created as holy.
Hello Mackenzie:
So I don’t know if you’re not getting my texts, but I hope you’re loving Azusa! I’ve been reading your blogs so I pretty much know what’s going down in the life of Mac Smith, but I want to hear MORE! I love you so much Mackenzie and I miss you incredibly, but I know that Azusa is where God has a plan for you. He’s going to do great things with you there and I can’t wait to see them develop. I know you’re doing great down there, but I just wanted to let you know that I’m thinking about you and missing you! Have a fantastic day! (Which you obviously will because you’re at Azusa Pacific University!)
Honestly, I’m tired of meeting new people. I don’t want to sound bad or anything, because I don’t want to stop meeting new people. I love meeting people, and I’m excited to know people. But it’s so many freaking people to know, and so many names to remembered. I’m almost discouraged by the fact that I can’t remember everyone’s names. And there’s so many people here, so you feel like you’re getting to know a bunch of people, but secretly, you don’t know that many.
Which I think kinda leads into something I wanted to blog about. I’m not sure about you crazy people, but I totally love to hate me. I’m so hard on myself about literally everything. I hold myself to standards of perfection that are not attainable. I beat myself up because I do something that literally happens to everyone. I try to be perfect. Honestly, I’m not perfect. I’m not even a little perfect.
So I was reading this verse yesterday, and it got me thinking. It’s in the Message, at Romans 14:13-14. It says “I’m convinced — Jesus convinced me! — That everything in itself is holy. We, of course, by the way we treat it or talk about it, contaminate it.” So a couple things hopped to my attention. But the main one is this.
Everything is holy. In and of itself, everything is holy. It’s God’s creation, and God doesn’t make unholy things. God makes things holy. When he creates them, they are holy. He created us. That means when he created us, we were perfect. We were corrupted by the world we live in, the hate, the crazy people. But we were born holy. I carry weight on my shoulders a lot o the time, just because I’m not who I want to live up to be. Because I’m not perfect. Which I understand is ridiculous, and I understand that I should know I can make mistakes. And I will make mistakes. And I’m working on it, so give me a break. But it’s always reassuring, when I read this, I know that I was created for a purpose. And God, has created me as holy, and has a holy plan for me. That’s just what I need to hear on some days, you know? Like on the day when I totally hate myself for my little imperfections, I can remember that I am made holy by the Holiest. I am loved by the creator. And that’s always encouraging. Especially when I’m hating on myself. I may not be perfect. But I was definitely created as holy.
I’m going here someday who would like to join?!?! Ryan is coming with by the way!
Hey Ryan I’m not exactly sure how to send you a message so you can see this, but I thought maybe I’d try this out after reading your amazing blog. Love ya Buddy!